Date: February 22, 2018
Planetary Day: Day of Jupiter
Planetary Hour: Hour of Mars
Lunar Phase: First Quarter, 20° Zodiac (Taurus), Lunar Mansion of Dabaran
Solar Phase: Rising
Activities: Invocation and Assumption of the Godform of Yeheshuah, LIRP, Lord’s Prayer, Visions of Last Supper, Riding Donkey through City, Temptation in the Desert, Blessing / Exorcism in the Holy Spirit
I astrally projected into my astral inner Temple, which took the form, this time, a great Cathedral with brightly multicolored stained glass windows and vast, sweeping arches that towered high above my head.
In the center of the Cathedral, sat the black Double-Cubical Altar adorned with the Cross and Triangle of the Golden Dawn. Elevating hymnal music played on an organ in the background, creating a celestial aural soundscape in the space.
I formulated the Godform of Yeheshuah, invoking and vibrating YEHESHUAH until his lean robed form stepped out of a blindingly bright golden light and into the rainbow light that streamed through the stained glass windows. He had a beard and wore a white robe with a red sash.
“Greetings, my son,” he said in a warm tone.
“Greetings with great love and respect, oh Yeheshuah. Please assist me in invoking the presence of Our Father,” I said.
I then stepped into the Godform and felt it encompass my Aura, simultaneously expanding the image of Yeheshuah out from the heart center while vibrating YEHESHUAH until the Form fully encompassed my Sphere of Sensation. In this state, Yeheshuah was I and I was Yeheshuah — the truth, the light and the Way.
In the form of Yeheshuah, I performed the Lesser Invoking Ritual of the Pentagram with the Hierophant’s Wand, seeing Yeheshuah’s pentagrams in powerful golden-white flaming light. His voice on vibrating the Names of Power was powerful and yet filled with love, absolutely empty of egotism or arrogance. The visions of the Archangels were particularly vivid and the Qabalistic Crosses were deeply energizing.
I noticed something interesting about how Yeheshuah drew down the light for the Qabalistic Cross; he did not formulate it from a sphere above the head (Keter), but first drew and focused it from its dispersed state all around him (the Ain Soph Aur) to then form a sphere above the head from which to draw down the light. This seemed to me very powerful and effective, like going a step beyond the Tree of Life and pulling from that vaster field before space-time even emerged.
After completing the LIRP, while still in the Godform, I began to recite the Lord’s Prayer. Two lines in to the familiar prayer, however, while gazing through Yeheshuah’s eyes, an unexpected vision suddenly welled up from within and covered my full whole field of view. To my great surprise, I was no longer in my Temple. Instead, I was seated at a long wooden table with my disciples crowded around and before me. On the table were bread, wine, figs, grapes, and fish.
I heard Yeheshuah’s voice from my lips saying “truly I tell you, one of you at this table will betray me.” Hearing this, the disciples all protested and began to talk excitingly among themselves. Peter, with his long hair and beard, particularly protested. But looking at him, Yeheshuah said, “you too, Peter, will deny me three times before the rooster crows.” Emphatically, he denied that this would be, but a certainty within the heart of Yeheshuah told me otherwise.
Then the scene shifted, as unexpectedly as before. Suddenly, I found myself riding my donkey through an ancient city that I soon realized was Jerusalem. Before me, disciples placed cloaks and palm branches on the street. Inwardly, I heard myself saying:
“Those who ride with the Father have no need of exalted horses or Chariots like the Kings to which you are accustomed. A humble donkey is perfectly fitting. Truly I tell you, those who lower themselves will be raised up; those who raise themselves up will be lowered.”
The thought occurred to me, as Frater S.C.F.C., to ask what happened to Yeheshuah in the desert.” A third time, the vision shifted, as if in response.
I now stood in the desert with sand blowing about me. There no one else to be seen for miles all around me, just lonely sad tunes, all except for one figure. Before me, the Tempter stood, not as in the classical depictions as a red-skinned, Pan-like demon, but rather much more humble-seeming, as a man in a beige cloak, with bright, clear eyes.
He offered me countless temptations… power, wealth, fame… but I, as Yeheshuah, remained unmoved. “Who has the Lord, has all. Who has these things, but lives not in Love, has nothing. Therefore, of what worth are they, except to those who know not this?” I spoke to the Tempter. He smiled.
The vision ended, as quickly as it had started, and I found myself standing in the vast Cathedral of my astral Temple once more. Light filtered in through the stained glass windows and the music of the organ insinuated itself gently in the background like a metallic holy murmur. I stepped out of the Godform and stood before Yeheshuah as Frater S.C.F.V. once more, in a red robe, with a red and green-striped nemyss and the Rose Cross Lamen over my heart.
“Could you please bless me in the Holy Spirit, oh Yeheshuah?” I asked.
“With great Love and joy” Yeheshuah said.
Then he lay his hands over my head and spoke these words: “May the Holy Spirit dawn on you, descend to you, and ascend in you at once.
May your mind be opened to wisdom, your heart opened to love and compassion, your spirit opened to strength, and your Inner Sight opened to Vision.”
As he said this, a great love dawned up within me and flowed through me like a dove on wing or a flush of golden light breaking through a darkened sky at dawn…
“Remember these words well
For they are the heart of the Way:
In all humility, give up that which never was,
And open to that which always is.”
I took these words to heart.
“I now cast out all demonic influences you carry within you, for carry them you do,
May they go at once in the Name of the Lord!”
As he said this, I saw three jet-black beings that looked like ghosts with gaping mouths and black eyes rush out of my Sphere of Sensation and instantly felt a weight lift out of me… Vaguely, I remembered a time many years ago when I had seen similar faces when I was struck with sleep paralysis in the middle of the night and felt a great weight pressing down on my chest. Had they been with me all this time?
“May you ever be guarded
And on guard
Against such influences.”
“Know that wherever you go, you go not alone, but the Spirit goes with you,
“Amen and thank you, dear Yeheshuah,” I said, feeling humbled and in awe.
I performed the Qabalistic Cross in the method Yeheshuah had shown me of first drawing the Presence of the Light from all around to gather above me. It felt very natural done in this way, as if I were retracing the primordial emanation of Kether itself from the Limitless Light that gave it rise.
I thanked Yeheshuah for all the gifts and blessings he had bestowed on me.
“Go in peace to love and serve the Lord and all around you,” he said,
Stepping back into the golden Light from whence he came and vanishing into it.
The light streamed in through the cathedral’s stained glass windows, and as I closed the Temple, the organ music slowly faded out and silence reigned in the astral Temple.
I left the Temple, returned to my seated body, and tuned back into the bodily sensations of the Nephesh and the G’uph within the body.
Now back in my physical form, I noticed that my energy still felt light, radiant, peaceful, and that a gentle and unassuming love seemed to kindle like a gentle candleflame within my heart.
I prayed to draw a Rune that would give me guidance to carry me through this day.
My jaw dropped when I saw the Rune that emerged as I pulled it from its bag.
It was Gebo or Gyfu, which has the shape of a Cross, and means both gift and sacrifice.
Could there be any other symbol more appropriate to cast for guidance from the Oracle after a vision like this?
Gebo carries the meanings of gifts, sacrifice for nobler purposes, balance, forgiveness—a gift Yeheshuah often gave—gratitude—appropriate for gifts–dissolution of barriers through selflessness, and esoterically, also suggests the equally appropriate symbolism of being the signature or harbinger of divine visions.
In its evocation of reciprocity, it also suggests the connection between Divinity and the people, the places where our paths intersect like the crossroads it resembles. In this sense, it is also an image of Oneness, of interdependence, interconnectedness, and unity.
Gebo has no reversed form; in its ultimate dimension, it signifies the ultimate gift: freedom.