This was a powerful experiment in auditory as opposed to visual skrying. I played a droning tone on a keyboard and rested my head on the keyboard, remaining there for a period of 3 hours during which I tuned my attention completely into the tone, allowing all else to fade away. The blackness of the space behind my eyelids soon began to give way into a fractallic tunnel of coloured geometry, which I entered and there came into contact with a wise Voice, which answered the questions of my Ruach from a place of Higher Wisdom. All these years later, although my work has shifted from teaching to social work, many of the things it said still resonate. I now believe that voice to have been none other than my H.G.A., offing guidance to the Ruach and Nephesh to bring them into deeper alignment and harmony and manifest this in my day to day human life in a way more aligned with my G.D. aspirations.
2010 Magical Journal Entry
The following pages were written by hand in a book, starting from the last page of the book and moving backwards some pages into the book. They were written after the powerful visionary journey was over and the ordinary state of consciousness had resumed itself.
The entry reads: “While seated at the musical keyboard, I used the music I was playing as a skrying tool, skrying into the auditory tones of the music just as one would skry into the visual tones in a crystal or mirror. I bowed over the keyboard, closed my eyes, and played slowly. After a few moments, my closed eyes saw vivid patterns, fractallic, yet reminiscent of organic forms. They oscillated and changed as the musical notes did.
I was entranced by the patterns, but after an hour or so, I heard a voice speak to me. I don’t remember its exact words, but it spoke to me with an ancient, deep, yet light voice, which somewhat resembled my own voice, saying:
“Listen… I am your true and higher Self… I will show you what you must see and teach you what you must learn…”
“Within you shines a great Light, a radiant and living beauty. Its essence is the energy of reality itself—the living Power that displays itself to itself and generates and experiences all forms and experiences.
“Your thoughts, feelings, world, body, and all that you know are expressions of it… it takes all forms in its outpouring into being.. bliss as well as suffering, food as well as starvation… this One Awareness sees itself through many eyes, awakens to its own potential by actualizing it in every person, being, and thing…
“There are lessons it seeks to learn through encounters with each manifestation…it allows itself the freedom to experience the full range of highs and lows, profound thoughts and superficial ones, contractions and expansions… it operates on multiple levels… the physical, the conceptual, the archetypal, the pure and scintillating energetic Light…Light is the fundamental symbol of its unfolding.
“It reads itself as the world through the matrixes of experiene that it develops in the human perceptual system… each specialized vocabulary, paradigm, system of thought, and cognitive model gives it a new avenue for interpreting itself and becoming aware of itself…
“Each ‘focus’ of awareness is drawn to particular archetypes, which guide the course of its life… for some, it is the warrior, for others, the benefactor, the mother, the father, the pop star, the philosopher, the philanderer… for you, one such archetype is the teacher, the wise sage, the Adept…
“From the youngest age, you have been drawn to instantiations of the guide, the philosopher-instructor… this is a facet of your True Will… to learn and to teach, to see and to help others to see, to embody all virtues and to teach by example…but to truly do your Will, you must move your petty dalliances in insecurity and timidity…the strength of the One Being is within you and moves beneath your every action… you are big enough, strong enough, smart enough, sociable enough… look now into your True Beauty, within your Heart, the indwelling of the Light, the true Beauty of all things, the true nature… (hearing these words, and feeling a warm glow arising within me, a beautiful rose and red and golden light arising… I felt such relief and bliss that I immediately began to shed physical tears)
My thoughts turned to the Qabalistic Tree of Life and the magical Elements and the voice began to comment on my thoughts, saying:
“The Tree of Life is one model of being, one mode of experience, one key to accessing the Powers and forces of Being, but it is not the only one… I speak to you, You speak to You, through the matrix of your own language and experience, but this is not the only possible wording, the only view… these models have value, but none is the sole correct one…
The Elements are dimensions of Being, archetypal Powers embodied in specific qualities…”
I thought about the Golden Dawn system of Magic and the voice commented on it saying:
“The Golden Dawn offers a system of symbols, rituals, and powers through which you can learn about and harness certain archetypal forces… you may study it or not, join or found an Order or not… you are free… you feel drawn to this now, so study it, explore it… the time in which this center of awareness, this center of experience, which you call your life is present… is short… brief, but there is yet time to explore, to learn, to teach, to experience… the Golden Dawn offers you one such path, but it is not the only valid one…”
I asked about my magical motto, by Wisdom, Compasion, and Strength, I Live. The voice answered:
“This is a representation of your highest aspirations… true wisdom, knowledge, learning, understanding, that which brings serenity and peace…sapientia… to be aware of suffering, its causes, and care for the suffering of all beings and of yourself… compassione… to harness the strength of the Living Beauty, both physical and psychological.. fortitudineque… and to live the life od the Middle Way, balanced and integrated… the Tree of Life harmonized…Vivo.
Sapientia is the awakening and activity of the Supernal sephiroth within your sphere of sensation…
Compassione is the pillar of Mercy…
Fortitudineque is the pillar of Severity / Strength… a
And ‘vivo’ is the energy of life, the life that balances all of these… the unifying nexus of free experience…”
I asked for practical advice for the coming days of my teaching internship at a local high school and the voice said:
“Be not afraid… live by the ideals embodied in your new Name; show caring, understanding, compassion for your students and prepare… read your sources, and learn from your cooperating teacher… and all will be well… follow your True Will and you will become the true teacher… you are good enough, you are ready, and you will succeed… simply believe in yourself and listen to the inner voice that calls you to the good and the ethical… turn to me, who am truly You… look within for the strength and wisdom you need…”
“Embrace your family and friends and beloved… treasure them, show them true kindness, care, and appreciation… through them, too, the Living Beauty experiences itself… know that you are exactly where you need to be…”